I just read an article on Skelliewag that really hit a nerve. Hard. It was about letting a blog go — and drawing from personal experience, Skellie had come to some incredible conclusions for the reasons behind the lack of posting on her blog. While there are some things that aren’t so relevant for Bright Side Lover, other points rang very true… and I thought it was about time I put my ‘leave notice’ up, as much as it pains me to do so.
As you may (or may not) know, I spent six months working with a web designer friend to get Bright Side Lover online and looking the way I wanted. I lived and breathed the site for those six months, and spent every spare second emailing back & forth with the U.S based designer, tweaking the smallest things, because if I was going to develop this site, I wanted to do it right.
Then, in a bizarre coincidence, the day the site was finished & ready to go, I started a new job… which, as the weeks go by, has become incredibly demanding & to be honest, has stolen a huge chunk of my time. Weekend work and late nights are the norm & I hate to use time as an excuse, but broken down in its simplest form, it is the reason I haven’t been able to update the site as often as I would like to. It’s not a time management issue — in reality, it’s a balance issue. As much as I would like to knock off at 5pm and come straight home to whip up an article of a night, it seems my career & my desires are totally not on the same page!
So, after that convoluted spiel, what I am trying to say is that I will be letting Bright Side Lover go for a while, to firstly focus on my career, and secondly, to bring back a bit more balance into my daily life — to see Ramai, and my friends and family more, and to look after my body by getting back to regular exercise… which I am really missing. It sucks A LOT, because I have put many, many hours & a fair bit of money into getting this site online, & I had some pretty huge dreams & ideas for the direction I wanted to steer it. Nevertheless, I don’t think it was all in vain, and something tells me that when my situation changes, the site will be back & bigger, better & brighter than ever.
The worst crime I think I could commit would to be unauthentic, and I’m not going to put half-assed attempts at articles online for the sake of it… it’s not fair to my readers and I’m sure it would do me more harm than good! The kind of site I want to have online is one that would require me to work on it full-time, filled with informative, well-thought out, inspiring articles — and my hope is that one day I can do just that!
I’m so sorry to my new subscribers, as there has been quite a few — and also, to my loyal readers who have sent me concerned emails, I apologise. I’ve been on a complete work-only diet unfotunately, but for now, it feels like the right thing to focus my energies on. Sorry to disappoint you… if only blogging could pay the bills at the moment!
I have learned a great deal from the “journey” (establishing this site) & am really looking forward to what the future holds for Bright Side Lover. It’s not over, I’m just letting go of the reins for a little while (likewise, it’s not you, it’s me! hahaha — well, this does kinda feel like a break-up!).
I hope you understand.
Sending you the biggest love, rainbows galore, umpteen kisses & hand-picked stars,
Rach xxx
